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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Anxiety should be a four-letter word...

God is in CONTROL! This I know! I know this without even blinking...and I keep having to say it to friends and to myself. Where is my faith? I feel like I am drowning in a spiraling ocean of problems and discontent and conflict everywhere I turn. One direction is death, the other cancer, the other tension and conflict, the other bad grades and it goes on and on... every corner I turn there is always an opportunity to trust God. For this, I am truly thankful. It seems my friends are experiencing terrential rain when it comes to opportunities for faith in Christ. If I allow it, it can be overwhelming, but only if I choose to view and ponder the rain with the flesh and not the Spirit. I know that I can look at another's life and always be thankful that I do not have the trial they have. I am truly blessed beyond measure and I am ashamed at the first thought of complaining or self pity. Sometimes I struggle with just giving my problems and the burdens my friends and family have to God. Why do I hang on? I can't handle them. I can't fix them. (Yes, I said "fix".)

I clearly do not have the answers. I can't even stop my son from back talking me and he is almost 10. THIS is a huge problem in our lives and home right now! I can feel myself getting tense at the first mention of it. I need Godly people to walk through my home and pray over every single room. I think I'm going to have to start requesting this on a weekly basis. It is not of God for me to allow anxiety to take over.... and the funny thing is, it wasn't too long ago that I didn't even know what anxiety was. Now, I don't suffer from panic attacks and I don't struggle with anxiety but I can assure you, I feel as if I am standing with my toes on the threshold of "The Gates of Anxiety". I don't know how I got here. I didn't want to come here. As a matter of fact, I would love a ticket to the first train out of Anxiety-Town.

I am holding the ticket, and it's not to any train, plane or cab. It's not even a bumby ride, no line to wait in and no busy signal on the other end of the line. Gods word tells me that if I just give it to Him, He will carry my burdens for me. Sigh....aaahhhhhh. What a relief! It's a relief to know that I HAVE NO NEED THAT EXCEEDS HIS POWER!! (go ahead, read that statement again).

Ephesians 1:19-20 states "and His incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, (20) which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand n the heavenly realms,".

GLORY! How can I possibly even begin to worry ever again? But I will...because I'm breathing. Yep! I'm helpless alright. But in Him, I have HIS POWER.
In verse 19 the word "believe" is a present active participle verb tense. This promise is applied to those presently, actively, continually believing God. It is not in past tense. Praise Him! So right now, at this very minute, I am presently, actively, continually BELIEVING GOD.

In His Grip~
Shanna

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